I'm hurting. Not emotionally. I stuffed all my feelings down and now I have a stomachache. I can barely breathe. I just don't know what to do. I care about him so much, but I know I can't go back. I just want to take care of him. She doesn't know him like I do. I know all his secrets. I know how to treat him and how to make him laugh. She doesn't. He needs someone right now. His family is about to collapse. His life is about to get so much worse, I can just feel it. His moms gonna get very sock and go into treatment, and his dads not going to know how to cope. His sisters gonna fall because no ones there to support her. And he's gonna be all alone. He's making a stupid decision to switch schools. He can't make friends right now. He can't do school work. He can't concentrate. His parents are going to waste their money that they could be using on treatment. O just. I wish I could do something to fix this family. I don't want him to have to suffer like I did, and like I still am. I want this for no one. Especially him. I feel so helpless.