I will not let you die.

I don't care if you're halfway across the world, married to another girl in Switzerland. I will not let you die. You are my best friend. And I will guard and protect you until the day I die. As long as you are out there in this world, I will be okay.

I'm numb. You could have been gone. And after your dad beat you, and your mom has cancer... I know, your leg sucks right now. But it's still a life worth living. Don't you ever give up on me. Don't you ever give up on life, or happiness. Keep holding onto whatever has kept you sane for this long.

Fine. Go be with her. But be safe. And know that I'm always a phone call away. I love you. And I'm scared for you.
I have not been able to cry. I think I'm just in shock. I have never seen you that way, never seen you hurt like that. And I am crushed. I have no appetite and I can't concentrate. I'm just in a daze. I just want to sleep and write you letters and just keep calling until I can hear your voice.

I'm in a daze...