I just want him back. I just want to be able to hold him in my arms and know that he's okay, that he can't hurt himself, and that maybe for just a few minutes, he won't be hurting. I just want him to be okay. I just want him to be okay....

Tears are flooding, like a dam. I just want to be able to see him. And hold him and never, ever let go. I'm going to go insane if I can't see him.