I feel funny. I feel free. Which is a weird feeling for me to have. Usually I feel trapped and suffocated, but lately, I've just been.. okay. I'm not mourning the loss of my ex, or the fact that BGF has a new girlfriend. Because frankly, I really don't care. I'm just super concentrated on my future, and getting my GPA back up. Guys are so dumb. I have no time for them anymore. It's suddenly super clear to me that the reason no high school relationship works is because guys are just stupid in high school. They just want head and sex. And weed. That's seriously about it. Later on, yeah, they start looking for serious shit, but right now, they just think with their dicks. I think it's so stupid that society is always like, "high school romance, siiighhh...", when really, it's a bunch of bullshit and a waste of everyone's time.

I think I'm feeling like this because I bumped up my meds to 200. Is this considered self medicating? I'm not sure, but I'm going to ask for it to be prescribed this way. Because I feel okay. Yeah, I feel a little off and foggy, but at least I'm not in constant pain. And trust me, that is so nice to be able to say....