I'm done.

I'm done letting you ruin my life. I'm done trying to be the girl that you always wanted me to be. I'm done hoping and praying that you will come back through that door. I'm done looking for you in crowds. I'm done going to the choir room just to see your face. I'm done with you and your stupid manipulative games. I've tried so hard. For almost 2 years now, you've held me prisoner. You've tortured me, made me play by your rules. But you know what? I deserve so much more than you. I don't want you anymore. I'm too good for you. I'm obviously smarter than you, and kinder than you will ever be. I am so sick and tired of your bullshit, of your flirting with me, dangling the prize in front of me only to let me fall on my face. I've given you more that four chances now. I left my boyfriend for you. I left my best friend. I let all my friends down, I let you eat away at my heart and take over my life. I let you destroy who I was. You took all my innocence, you killed that little girl that believed in true love and happily ever after. You used me, and then left me. You let me fall into a depression. You just stood there and watched me fall apart. You watched as little parts of my heart just fell off and died. And you didn't even fucking care. You are a cruel, cold-hearted creature, and you will never deserve my unconditional love. But guess what? Motherfucker, I got right back up. I pulled myself out of that black hole without any of your help. Because I DON'T NEED YOU. You are going to grow up to marry one of those superficial girls, the ones that sit there in class and coat their faces with orange slime and laugh fake laughs, with breathes that smell like bubble gum. Because that's all you are. You are all frosting and no cake. You have no soul. Or if you have one, it's black as hell. It's like you don't care about anyone but yourself. You are so selfish.

You know how I said I was going to punch you in the face? I wonder what would happen. What if I just walked up to you and slapped you. I would give anything in the world to slap the shit out of you. I'll just wait for the prime moment, for you to slip up again and piss off my friends. Watch out, bud.