this is your chance to start over.

he's gone now, and that sucks and hurts, but this is your time to recreate yourself and become who you want to be. you have made mistakes but your past does not define your future. you are not the worst human being to walk this planet, this is not the end of the world. go to school. focus on your job. be the best you can be. when you have enough saved up, hit the open road. go to california like you've always dreamed. leave the past in the past. you're 19. you're not even 20 yet. you have time to explore and recreate. you're allowed to do this. and you can and will do this.

no guys. none of that. just start over.

remember to breathe.