whats the point of me even being here.

my own dad, who hurt me repeatedly, won's fly me home for thanksgiving. so im stuck in this dorm alone. everyone else has gone home. i feel utterly unloved and unwanted. im in love with my best friend and he loves some other girl whos hundreds of miles away. im just never enough. not worth the plane ticket. not worth the love. just completely not worth it. its days like this that i wish i did not eve nhave to try anymore. ive just wanted to cry this whole week and i finally broke. why. now im just sitting here watching myself bleed.