I know you want a relationship. And trust me, I do to. But you don’t know what it’s like. You haven’t experienced crazy in your head. Crazy hasn’t settled down and made a life for itself in your soul, in the core of your being. I’m sorry that I had to be the one you chose.

I need crazy. I need someone who gets it. I need someone who scares me just as much as I scare them. I need it. I crave it.

I need to cut. I need to hurt. I need to bleed. “The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had.” Because pain is so addicting, and I NEED it. I feed off of it. Whether I cause it or not.