I feel like if I don't write right now I'm going say something I regret. Maybe if I'm drunk I'll say it and it'll be okay, but right now I feel like crying, because you love her, and not me. And I love you. Every time you say her name, a dagger goes through my heart. It's like a pulse of electricity shoots through my body and then zooms in on my heart. And then i break. I break inside every time you say her name. What does she have that I don't? Why can't i have you 

When you say my name I have to stop for a second and just let it ring in my ears. It leaves me still. Frozen. 

When you're feeling helpless, like you'll never get past this, remember to Never Stop and remember the alter and his brunette hair. Leo doesn't have brunette hair, so there. 

He didn't even date her. So maybe you're an equivalent. But she was here first.