What sucks is that I know you're not good for me. But that doesn't stop me from loving you to pieces. I know that being with you will hurt me and I know being without you will hurt me. I know that everything happens for a reason, but right now I'm not really seeing the reason for this pain.

The thought of being with you, being able to kiss you one more time, makes my heart flutter. But I know that that'll make me even more attached. And then when you walk out of my life for the third time I'll be crushed.

But the thought of not having you in my life is equally painful. I feel like you're supposed to be here with me.

So for how, I remain in love with my boyfriend. And I remain in love with you.