Sunday, August 9, 2015

Of course your parents are going to make the hugest possible deal out of this. First of all, your father has hated me since day one. I have been nothing but kind and accepting to him and he still looks at me with contempt because I somehow "coaxed" you into premarital sex. So I'm already the devil in his mind. And your mother is going to look at me and be like "well, there's another Donna." The Donna who has OCD and can't keep a job for two seconds and went to jail, and all of these awful things. But I'm not your aunt donna, I'm a girl who made a horrible mistake.

And what the hell does robbing your family have to do with anything? I've NEVER stolen from you or your family. The worst I've done is take some bananas from Target on accident, and some trashbags from the place I nannied because I had none. How does being a prostitute have ANYTHING to do with harming your family?? Yes, I was desperate, but I did not at any point, take anything from you or your family. Don't you think I would have done that by now if that was my intention? I would have done that years ago.

Your dad already hated me, your mom assumes I will become a Donna. I love you and you love me. I made a mistake. It's over. I never have to go back. That is that. I'm human. Humans make mistakes. And for that I am sorry.

Saturday, August 8, 2015

this is your chance to start over.

he's gone now, and that sucks and hurts, but this is your time to recreate yourself and become who you want to be. you have made mistakes but your past does not define your future. you are not the worst human being to walk this planet, this is not the end of the world. go to school. focus on your job. be the best you can be. when you have enough saved up, hit the open road. go to california like you've always dreamed. leave the past in the past. you're 19. you're not even 20 yet. you have time to explore and recreate. you're allowed to do this. and you can and will do this.

no guys. none of that. just start over.

remember to breathe.