C: just shut up. seriously. you're so annoying and snarky and horrible to everyone. you criticize me and my life decisions, every step of the way. this is MY life. you make everyone you feel stupid, because you're convinced you're ALWAYS right. you're not. you have so much more to learn. we all do. you argue about the stupidest little things. you won't talk to your mother when all she's done is love you unconditionally. even when you're an asshole, your mother loves you. you are NOT better than everyone else. you are 17, not even an adult. you don't know everything.

J: you need to calm the fuck down. stop taking everything to heart. my dad doesn't want to talk because he feels like shit. he's dying. sometimes he doesn't want to talk. and i get that. I'm a quiet person. that doesn't mean i'm not grateful, or unhappy, that just means he doesn't want to talk. it's really not that hard of a concept. and you, my dear, don't know everything either. you are just as flawed as the rest of us. stop acting like you walk on water, and maybe you and C will get along easier. the world is not going to bow down at your feet. And about C - IGNORE HIM!! sometimes he acts like a total piece of shit and I get that. but you guys are more similar than you like to admit. you both make everyone else around you feel stupid, and that's not a desirable trait. you may have gone to college, but don't use that against people to make them feel lesser than you.

also, don't call me a liar. maybe i don't want to tell people my life story about how I'm a depressed wreck sometimes, or how my family collapsed when i was 14, or how I was abused, or how my dad is dying. I don't want to tell people I didn't get in to any of the colleges I wanted because of my setbacks. I just want to tell them a black and white lie, because sometimes I wish my life was just that easy.