That's why you have to keep looking. Look for this. Right now, he's not attainable. Neither of them. But you know how it feels. You know when it's okay, you know when it's right.

You hooked up with him on the first day, and look, you're okay.

Maybe give him more of a chance. Get to know him better. Maybe you'll feel it. Stop being so scared. Just live. Just feel. Don't be afraid to feel. You have a safety net and a system. Just relax.