I'm feeling kinda numb. My life's sorta falling apart again. My ex is in some hospital in another state on suicide watch. My parents found out about all the abuse. And my boyfriend is acting super weird. I just failed a math test. I have two more tests today. I can't feel my arms. I feel so nauseous and scared. It's hard to see the future. I guess I'll just take it one day at a time and keep smiling. I have no more tears left to cry.