The worst kind of crying is the silent one. The one when everyone is asleep. The one where you feel it in your throat, and your eyes become blurry from the tears. The one where you just want to scream. The one where you have to hold your breath and grab your stomach to keep quiet. The one where you can't breath anymore.

The one that you realize that the person who meant the most to you is gone.

I'm shaking with grief and pain. Sometimes I just have to sit here and let it sting. Let all the pain sink in for once and just feel it and let myself cry.Think about him and how much I miss him. How my life would be different if he were here with me.

The only way her heart will mend is when she learns to love again...
When will I love again though?