I wonder what it would be like to fall asleep in his arms. Would we face each other and look into each others eyes? Or would I back my body into his arms?

I never really loved my ex. But I loved him. I loved him with all my heart. He made me so happy.
So I wonder what it would be like to have slow, passionate sex with him, and then fall asleep in his arms, with his breath against my neck, and him holding me and keeping me safe from the nightmares. I wonder if he'd hold my hand and stroke my arms and my hair, and kiss the back of my head.

What I had with him was so special because it was innocent. Things went very slow, the emotions and feelings building.

Do I tell him how I feel?

No. No. I will contain myself. I will see him in person and I will hug him and look in his eyes and tell him that I'm still in love with him.

Take this slowly. Don't rush into it. Rushing always leads to craziness and irrationalism.