I can't help falling in love with him. I don't understand why he is so special. When he looks into my eyes, I can't look away. My eyes are locked to his, his lips curving into a smile. His eyes grow soft and warm and welcoming, like open arms, saying "come here, it's safe here with me". 

But I know it's not safe. I know his love is poison. It's blinding and abusive and unfair. In the end, I have to turn and walk away. And I can't look back. He's there. He's always there waiting and it's just not fair. I wish more than anything that I did not love him. I wish I didn't have to see him everyday. It seems that when they are out of sight, they're out of mind. I wish he would go away.